Real life epiphany.

For months I had been praying for different things in life. Career breaks, healing for my loved ones, and opportunities for me to learn and grow in different aspects. Yet, I had not received any of it. It was in those moments that I realized that God simply wanted me to begin focusing on me.

In this past year, I have poured into others more than I have poured into myself. I have done more, spent more, and learned to encourage others more than I encouraged myself. As a result, I overlooked my aspirations and helped others reach their dreams (although, not necessarily a bad thing). I found myself pouring into others when my very own vessel was empty.

Then one day I had a real-life epiphany.

I began to train myself on how to balance my everyday decisions.

I now have many of the things that I have asked for. However, I want more! I want to travel more, make more money, I want to create more memories, and most importantly I want to gain more insight on where God wants me to be. In these past months, I have learned that with a yearning for more I must also HAVE more. More patience, more wisdom, more discernment, and more constancy. 

I cannot want to see changes in those around me when I have not made the proper changes in myself.

Once I understand me, I will be able to create a balance of life in which I need. It is only at this point that I will be able to motivate others without ever questioning my capabilities.

I have a better understanding of what is important. I can smile at my efforts, laugh at my past, and get excited about my future.

This is OJ. This is ME. The better version of me. The work in progress society fails to see.